| UPDATE: It ain\'t official until you see it on my diet blog. THAT\'S when I officially start my diet. fortunately, people won\'t find my diet blog haha. Anyway, I\'ll also be taking up exercise. Is that a surprise?? Self-care, people, self-care...
I\'m on a diet....the ATKINS DIET. What\'s that??? It\'s a low-carbohydrate diet(20 grams or less) that allows pork fat, beef fat, cream and real butter....even olive oil. It lowers blood pressure and cleans your arteries to prevent heart attacks.
The American Medial Association shot Dr. Robert C. Atkins down claiming his diet is bad for the heart. The results are otherwise, that\'s why I have no trust in doctors in general.
As Bill Cosby said, that his UNCLE (or was it his Dad?) said, \'\'If you don\'t go to the doctor, you don\'t have it.\'\' Diseases like high blood pressure, arthritis and those for which you have to buy regular meds. Cancer does NOT exist and YET MILLIONS DIE from its diagnosis! WHY?? The \'\'chemo drugs\'\' said to kill cancer cells will kill healthy cells too...that means YOU! YOU\'RE those healthy cells.
Death from cancer in about two years when chemo drugs are used, was their former record. We\'ll see if the medical establishment covers up and announces lots of cancer cures in order to defy me. hehehe
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Yes, it takes some time to get over a love that was lost - from weeks to years, depending on...uhm...many factors.
[By the way, if you would still want to read the previous bunch of updates (the one mentioning that Harry laughed at the shade of PINK I used for the lipstick graphic and all that)...that stuff has been transferred to the journal....no, not deleted...]
So you wanna know what I\'ve been up to lately, eh?
Just some notes on revisions...JUST THE GRAPHICS (3)...
1. Forestica The Mermaid...still a match with the text part of CONSIDER ME...Reason for this latest revision? It\'s the original design (its first design) with updates on the wording.
2. Annals of Fishing (the one with the Fisherman\'s Seal)...for about a week this graphic has been so blurry....its crisp look has been restored....yay!
3. From Boy To Man...a total of three paragraphs have been added, instead of one...no, I won\'t get mad if you draw your own conclusions because some of you are just way too romantic that you can\'t accept that couples have to break up and all that...(still my favourite revision because...well, it was fun to do!)
(Again...To those who don\'t know what I\'m talking about, if you wish, you could refer to the references in Previous CONSIDER ME Updates in the Journal here.)
(And I\'ve just received word that not only friends and well-meaning folk read CONSIDER ME, my enemies are so active in reading that and other stuff as well...Oh well...that\'s life...)
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UPDATES:
Don*t worry, we*re STILL exes....however, we still do communicate (less now of course).
No,No,No....NOT Night Changes....just...CHANGES (revisions)
Harry seldom reacts negatively when I do posts or graphics, so when something*s off with him, I pay attention.
So the following have been revised based on his reactions:
1. BOTH the text and its counterpart in graphics - I revised the text entry The Successful Schemer and its graphic allegory Forestica The Mermaid.
Harry said the new graphic was so VAGUE even when I actually put in MORE WORDS into the graphic itself.
Thus I rewrote the text of The Successful Schemer so that the graphic and the text are now a MATCH, as far as a note-entry and an allegorical graphic could.
2. Harry won*t stop joking about the PINK lipstick (the shade is ridiculous to him...he doesn*t know it actually looks good on me) in From Boy To Man, so now it*s MAUVE. And yes, there*s a cute )or maybe just detailed hehe) addition to the story in that Fisherman*s Gazette love tale.
The following were revised due to the many questions of those who seek to understand CONSIDER ME....so here is a list of the changes:
1. The Introduction and its sequel Introduction 2, as well as the upper portion of the Open Letter itself were given MORE CLARITY....but of course I can*t write in EVERYTHING...People would have to refer to my journal here in Amypinkglass_2.
2. I revised the CONTENTS of the LONG TITLE of CONSIDER ME to emphasize that I*m not mad at Harry, we*re just not compatible.
REMEMBER....Harry and I ARE EXES although our lines of communication are open.
Personally, my favourite revision involves the text part of my graphic (actually the text there IS (graphic, or part of the graphic otherwise I wouldn*t be able to change the colours of the letters -not a given option in the free version of WordPress) about the story From Boy To Man. In other words, the story you see there IS a graphic (.jpg file), and I like the addition (one paragraph actually) I made there.
To newbies, these are all in CONSIDER ME in Umbrella Girl By Apple Mayflowers |
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1. New post: Head or Heart??
(As usual, this is pro-"us", pro-Harry, pro-me and anti-enemy)
Past updates:
3 things:
1. Post 2: Am I HINTING that I want Harry back? (Answer: No, and you should read the post before this one first. We still DO try to be updated with each other\'s thoughts and feelings.)
2. Post 1: About Harry\'s obsession with one guy...(I personally think he\'s so adorable sometimes when he*s jealous...I wonder at times if he*s doing this just to be adorable!)
3. The 10th revision of the graphics - Mermaid Ruth\'s letter re-done...many word and colour changes (some very subtle) in all the graphics located below the post "Consider Me"... Thanks to my enemies who criticised the graphics lol
One other thing...
I have an introduction to the graphics, mostly to directly defend the lifestyle of my long-standing (noon-noon pa!) now-my-former rival "alias Ruth Fuzzy Junior"...thereby also indirectly defending Harry because he\'s involved with her. It\'s time people stopped being hypocrites and be more charitable to others.
(Still in "Consider Me")
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| Yesterday, there was someone (one of my enemies...I just love that these people inspire so many posts and graphics about my fave topics!) who said to me:
"Your so-called break-up with Harry is a sham break-up. It*s not real. You*re both obviously very sweet with each other....and for whatever reason, you want to keep your romance a secret!"
ACTUALLY, I was annoyed with that tirade! Here I am struggling to stabilise my feelings, putting things in perspective, while at the same time trying to maintain good vibes with my ex Harry (because we believe in that)...and here come people like this who accuse me of things I*m not (lying and participating in a sham break-up) (well, it*s real folks...and it hurts because the love that came before this real break-up was also real!)...Do you think accusations HELP a broken heart? Yeah I forgot for a moment that my enemies want nothing better than to harm me. Figures, right?
How I wish that were true: no broken heart, no pain! By now, people already know that I*m the kind of person that can decide to remain someone*s ex even though I*m still in love with the person. Why is this? Well, people have all sorts of valid reasons for breaking up (one of the most valid and credible is "gross incompatibility", I mean, if you both don*t want the same things in life, each of you is better off being with someone who is happy with exactly that thing that makes you happy too.) And when you decide you*re doomed to incompatibility with someone, you cut your losses before the whole thing turns into one big tragedy....that then leaves you to deal with the fact that your heart doesn*t necessarily agree with what your mind has decided as the best solution. (Because your heart says it is still madly in love with the said ex...How hard this internal fight is at times...head versus heart!
Which one wins - the head or the heart?? FOR ME, the answer is easy (different circumstances indicte which one should win!): When I fall in love, I listen to my heart and take on the challenge of loving someone. When troubles surface, I don*t care what my heart says at that point, I*ll just solve the problem as intelligently as I can...and I*m not claiming special intelligence or anything like that...I just aim for the best solution...it really has to be head-over-heart.
And that way, I look like a stick in the mud, clinging stubbornly to whatever I*ve decided on. For DECADES. So all you romantics can either turn to stone or curl up and die, and I*ll still stick to my guns.
Is there NO CHANCE EVER?? There*s one: It*s called a Miracle. By that, I mean - the transformation of two souls so that they could be compatible at last. That takes DECADES too. So yeah...there*s no way out this time, the romantics lose this round.
Is life a game to be played, with others winning and others losing?? I see LIVING this way: "Life is a game I must win; love is optional, and certainly not a game (we can*t play with peoples* hearts...so we have to be careful when we choose someone to love)." But that*s just me. I*m sure most everyone has his or her own version of what life and love are to them. |
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The following refers to my post which immediately precedes this one:
Some people, notably, my enemies (those who dislike me intensely for various reasons) have a particular, evil pleasure, which is mocking and taunting me about being wishy-washy and having no philosophy to live by. Therefore they say the post preceding this was my way of telling the world I really don*t have any backbone. This is my reply to their taunts:
The ideas I WANTED TO CONVEY in the preceding post were:
1. I have no idea about what my destiny is, when it comes to love...and there may be none!
2. I*m choosing to tell the story of one of Harry*s various reactions to my posts
3. We still communicate a lot and it*s something I don*t mind letting people know (I mean, so what? Do it with your ex too!)
4. I think (my personal opinion of course) he*s really cute when he*s jealous
5. Maybe this point isn*t so obvious but NEVER DID I HINT that I*m considering being his girlfriend again. Perhaps it*s very unusual for exes to communicate so much, but remember, we had a strong bond BEFORE we became sweethearts.
Yes, perhaps it*s NOW timely to reveal a question I ask myself these days, because I do have a crush on him: How can someone THAT handsome and sexy be "NOT mine at all"??? A thought comes to mind immediately after that, and at the cost of repetition, as I*ve said in the Welcome page of Umbrella Girl by Apple Mayflowers, "Just because something is awesome and great doesn*t mean I should have it." And I also firmly believe that "If someone ISN*T my Destined One, no amount of wishing and no amount of love for him can ever make this person mine, and mine alone. Destiny is destiny, what befalls us befalls us."] |
| His reaction is typical of him, especially in what I*ve written of some of the mysterious issues in our relationship. (Like I couldn*t for the life of me understand WHY he*s focusing on one guy, and this person became the subject of our conflicts and near-break-ups in the past)
(and yes, I*ve noticed that I*m the one who*s supposed to be in a jealous rage regarding three girlfriends which he could NOT let go of....but I already said I could*ve been the wife of a polygamist if he asked nicely, but he wouldn*t...and this post isn*t a rehash of our recent fights, but speaks of an entirely different thing - which is...my philosophy about where we end up in terms of our love-lives...and also how cute Harry is, even when he*s really not destined to be mine.)
So when I said, **...there has been like a "gear shift" in my feelings...Many will get it and say that I probably don*t love Harry enough. Just like with Wolf, to whom I put my foot down when he said he could "maybe want two girlfriends" (at the same time)...I didn*t love Wolf enough to GO ON with talks about "my sacrifice" and all that...there just wasn*t enough love for me to go on fixing "us". No more motivation.**
Harry actually reacted to that declaration of mine by saying, "It*s so easy to understand why you don*t love me enough...You actually love THAT GUY more. Infact, YES, HE WON, he*s the clear winner!"
And when I said that he was very wrong, he said, "Mark my words. You will BE announcing that you*re WITH HIM!"
Now I have something to say , not only about THAT GUY, but about life itself and my decisions.
THAT GUY is one of my suitors, although I can truly say Harry would have a heart attack if he knew who else are courting me. The names of the guys are not the subject of my comment, however.
What I want to say is that THAT GUY and guys like him are something different, something I*ve never tried before. I have mentioned several times in the past that - after a break-up, my tendency is to say that maybe I have to try something different next time in order to avoid the same old problems. So yes, I*m OPEN to any possibility, even being with the likes of THAT GUY.
WHAT is the status of THAT GUY in my life, by the way?? Harry would like to know. For sure...As far as I can tell, I think he*s nice (all my suitors are), and he is very handsome and manly too. But you know, so are my other suitors!
As for being head over heels for anyone, he or any guy CAN BE the focus of my heart someday...BUT there*s just no one but Harry in my heart RIGHT NOW (It*s the truth) (Yes, because he*s so sexy). I*m counting on getting over my best friend though, because no matter how handsome and sexy he is, he just ISN*T my Destined One.
So what I*m saying is that THAT GUY OR any other guy like him OR unlike him...are all possibilities for the future. One day, my heart might fall in love again (or it might not, and remain focused on Harry...we just can*t tell the future now, can we?). And THEN I would decide if I would act on my feelings. I will be wiser, because being alone for me is sometimes too precious to give up.
So Harry*s assumption is wrong, when he brings on references to THAT GUY. I can*t understand his obsession with that man. Although that guy is really a good person, it will take actual involvement in projects or some other timely circumstance to see more of what this man is like, and then my heart would make up its own mind whether to fall in love or not. And I can*t control my heart, so I just obey it. (Initially, that is.)
This is what my son said, when I asked his advice on how to handle Harry*s obsession with one man. He said, "Harry KNOWS he*s such a great catch that ONLY SOMEONE GREATER could beat him to your heart. At any rate, that*s how he thinks. He sees SOMETHING GREAT in THAT GUY, something he doesn*t have, and therefore cannot give to you."
Well talk about a refreshing point of view, a different opinion!
I always thought it was a just matter of Harry knowing WHO ELSE was courting me so he would stop obsessing solely on one man!
Anyway, both views on my best friend*s obsession are valid. There ARE other guys, only that he doesn*t know their names, so I think he tends to obsess on someone he knows loves me too. And yes, he*s probably thinking along those lines that my son indicated.
But my dear friend Harry*s reaction to the notion of me "probably not loving him enough to go on with the fixing of our problems" is how he would always react whenever there*s a stalemate in the fixing of our problems...he ALWAYS says, "I know. It*s because of THAT GUY."
(He*s so cute and adorable when he*s jealous *gushing nervous laugh*) (omg...no people, we*re NOT planning on getting back together!) (but yes..ain*t he sooo cute when he*s obsessing on that guy??) (He even said, "I know you*re just DYING to get laid by him because you think he*s oh-so-SEXY!") (...Now really: lol cute!)
[Note: For obvious reasons, I sometimes don*t give the EXACT words , for example...he SELDOM says THAT GUY; instead says the guy*s ACTUAL name...Of course I refuse to divulge that here, it*s one of the aspects of our privacy as best friends...and yes, I*m always hoping we as figures talked about by the public are mistaken for other people sometimes because that helps maintain my comfort level wherein I feel that I*m STILL blogging anonymously haha (don*t mind me)...BUT he did say THAT GUY a couple of times in the past, etc.] |
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SUMMARY OF MY PRESENT LOVELIFE AND THE CURRENT STATE OF MY HEART:
Like I*ve said above, it*s NOT "first you will and then you won*t"...I*m not wishy-washy about the major decisions in my life (being wishy-washy is for wimps) (of course, as a woman I reserve the right to be fickle in MINOR things...like I think I want this flavour (ice cream) then 5 seconds later I would change my mind - I repeat- this is NOT SO in the big matters in my life.)
[I mean, if I knew for a fact that I could still solve our problems, then I would*ve worked for a reconciliation really hard. (There would be no final-sounding declaration that I think it*s really over, but as many have seen, I WENT AHEAD with the declaration anyway!)]
Anyway...here*s the REAL shape of my heart:
It*s more like..."I have a jumble of feelings because I*m hurting from the break-up (naturally!) and I still have feelings for him (you can*t just shut love off like water from the tap, even if you wanted to)...yet I*m SURE I want to remain his ex."
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| 1. Got some new posts on the Journal here
NO, it*s NOT "first you will, then you won*t" as a despicable female deejay in the Philippines insinuated (FM/94.7...So the question now is...Who, among the workers mingling there, is that particularly ugly soul?? Search for her! lol She*ll scramble for cover!)...Some people are just so malicious, that they don*t belong in a people-oriented business...tsk-tsk-tsk!...
2. WHAT*S NEW?
I just expanded the second graphic in "Consider Me" into 4 separate graphics. Same content, but well-expressed this time. (I tried to cram everything into one graphic prior to this expansion)
Address keywords: Umbrella Girl by Apple Mayflowers
Previous update:
I restored the threat I made to the Pretty Airhead (in "Consider Me")...it*s back...I re-published the sentence because Harry might miss it too much lol |
| When he and I were just friends, he was just a kid...I actually could NOT conceive of us being "that way" with each other...
Now he*s all grown up, and not only that...he has gotten hotter than ever, hotter than anyone I*ve ever seen on Earth...and I look at guys with scrutiny!
I can*t go back to the days when I saw him as a kid...Sure, he WAS ALREADY handsome and sexy as a teenager, and girls were going wild for him...but I was like...feeling like a babysitter, his mother-figure or a way, way older sister-like someone in his life...
Today, I have to deal with forgetting a guy THAT HOT...(who at 21 looks like he*s 27 while children say I look 26...That was the reason I said we "jelled" - looked good together: but I did not mean that I was beautiful or anything like that...)...Anyway...I have to deal with the fact that he*s a best friend I COULD get drunk with someday and shag...but must not...
So it*s not easy, I tell you.
*Must not get within TEN FEET of him NOW that he*s looking so gorgeous and sexy, and he*s now a grown man (I keep on saying that) (that*s because..."I can*t believe my eyes!!"...as that Air Supply song says)...Anyway he*s always wanted to shag his best bud (me) so I*d better not cross his path NOW [note: In the past, I was simply more relaxed, as in anything goes like: Got a best friend that just sometimes sees you as a skirt?? No problem, just see him as a pair of pants!), well at least not be THAT near him (or maybe I can always be near him, just NOT ALONE with him...haha...this is going nowhere...)...I can ALWAYS wave at him from across the street (our fave thing about exes!)
Okay...I*m veering off-topic...
It*s hard to forget him because I have to strike a balance between being his friend (and never acknowledging his gender as it relates to mine) and being a girl who must always be on her guard and struggling to never,ever be seduced by what is truly my type: a tall, muscular guy with long hair, a husky voice [Update: He sometimes sounds like Ozzy Osbourne, BUT stay tuned...even his fans think he changes his voice all the time!), a prancing swagger and a big, I mean, big hands. They*re HUGE and sexy!
NO, this is NOT a secret code encouraging him to court me, unlike what some despicable people have insinuated. When you break up with someone, sometimes you*re still in love, YET YOU KNOW the relationship is doomed anyway.
Healing takes time, sometimes a long, long time, depending on what has transpired, right?
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| I DO DIET...using the ATKINS DIET....I go for Chinese or Eastern Medicine....even Homeopathy or Naturopathy (this reminds me of Sympathy and Empathy therapy....just the rhyming though)UPDATE: It ain\'t official until you see it on my diet blog. THAT\'S when I officially start my diet. fortunately, people won\'t find my diet blog haha. Anyway, I\'ll also be taking up exercise. Is that a surprise?? Self-care, people, self-care...I\'m on ...CONSIDER ME Updates as of December 1, 2015RECENT UPDATES:Yes, it takes some time to get over a love that was lost - from weeks to years, depending on...uhm...many factors.[By the way, if you would still want to read the previous bunch of updates (the one mentioning that Harry laughed at the shade...Previous CONSIDER ME UpdatesUPDATES:Don*t worry, we*re STILL exes....however, we still do communicate (less now of course).No,No,No....NOT Night Changes....just...CHANGES (revisions)Harry seldom reacts negatively when I do posts or graphics, so when something*s off with him, I pay a...Past Updates (transferred here)UPDATE: 1. New post: Head or Heart??(As usual, this is pro-"us", pro-Harry, pro-me and anti-enemy)Past updates:3 things:1. Post 2: Am I HINTING that I want Harry back? (Answer: No, and you should read the post before this one first. We still DO try to be ...WHICH WINS WITH ME: HEAD OR HEART??Yesterday, there was someone (one of my enemies...I just love that these people inspire so many posts and graphics about my fave topics!) who said to me:"Your so-called break-up with Harry is a sham break-up. It*s not real. You*re both obviously very swee...AM I HINTING TO THE WORLD AT LARGE...THAT I WANT HARRY BACK? (AM I WISHY-WASHY??)The following refers to my post which immediately precedes this one:Some people, notably, my enemies (those who dislike me intensely for various reasons) have a particular, evil pleasure, which is mocking and taunting me about being wishy-washy and having...Harry DID react when I said something to the effect of "Maybe there*s been a gear shift in my feelings, maybe I love him less..." (in my post WHY IT*S FINAL)His reaction is typical of him, especially in what I*ve written of some of the mysterious issues in our relationship. (Like I couldn*t for the life of me understand WHY he*s focusing on one guy, and this person became the subject of our conflicts and near...THE TRUE STATE OF MY HEART RIGHT NOW*SUMMARY OF MY PRESENT LOVELIFE AND THE CURRENT STATE OF MY HEART:Like I*ve said above, it*s NOT "first you will and then you won*t"...I*m not wishy-washy about the major decisions in my life (being wishy-washy is for wimps) (of course, as a woman I reser...UPDATES (various, from the front page)1. Got some new posts on the Journal hereNO, it*s NOT "first you will, then you won*t" as a despicable female deejay in the Philippines insinuated (FM/94.7...So the question now is...Who, among the workers mingling there, is that particularly ugly soul?? ...WHY IT*S HARDER NOW (TO FORGET HARRY) ALTHOUGH I*M CONFIDENT ABOUT MY DECISION TO REMAIN HIS EX...I CAN DO THIS THOUGH IT*S HARDWhen he and I were just friends, he was just a kid...I actually could NOT conceive of us being "that way" with each other...Now he*s all grown up, and not only that...he has gotten hotter than ever, hotter than anyone I*ve ever seen on Earth...and I look ...INTRODUCTION 2 (to "CONSIDER ME" in Umbrella Girl by Apple Mayflowers)Excerpt from the article/open letter "Consider Me" in Umbrella Girl by Apple Mayflowers:INTRODUCTION 2I finally made a graphic that expresses the gist of the entire article "in 50 words or less". (You don*t have to read the article/open letter rotfl) (yes...WE*RE GOODHarry and I may not be compatible as lovers (What is incompatibility?...In lovers, it*s when you both want differing things out of life...it*s having clashing goals and values)...but as friends, even best friends, we*re good (since one normally doesn*t ha...WHY IT*S FINAL - PART 2 (PLUS...That October 8th note asking Harry to stop courting me)This used to be on another page. However the other post would not load so it*s now here)It started with a plea/request: BFF HARRY SUPERMAN (or HARRY S. for short)...I*ve been good to you...I beg of you to stop courting me or trying to win me...You already...WHY IT*S FINAL - Part 1... (It*s not just about Harry...I feel I deserve a rest from all the hassles only young people must go through because they*re starting families)Do you all WANT to know WHY I think it*s FINAL??THIS IS AN OCTOBER 13TH UPDATE - to an October 8th post - right on this page - where I announced that I had an article called "Consider Me" - a detailed post about the various complexities {read: NOT simple ...THE GUY WHO COULD BE MY NEXT BOYFRIEND?...THIS POST IS MORE ABOUT HARRY...ALTHOUGH I DO MENTION THAT GUY OR GUYS LIKE HIM ACTUALLY...*Why do some people over-react...I mentioned in my previous post (the Thank You Page prior to this one) that a certain guy could be my next boyfriend (people were intrigued)....well...BECAUSE we almost became an item a few years back...in 2012...and my me...UPDATE ON 5 ARTICLES...UPDATE October 13, 2015: BEFORE I got sick I wrote this:CURRENTLY, I*M IN THE PROCESS OF WRITING MY RESPONSE TO A PARTICULARLY NASTY RUMOUR ABOUT ME (HEY, ABOUT ME THIS TIME!)...I HAVE THE CAPACITY TO CONFIRM OR DENY IT...SO WHAT WOULD THE REAL STORY BE? ...THANK YOU PAGE....THANK YOU TO HARRY, SOME PEOPLE, GUYS AND GALS...TO SOME, MY PUBLIC THANKS IS 12 YEARS OVERDUE!!! I SHOULD HAVE THANKED SOME OF YOU YEARS AGO PUBLICLY (YES, I DID THANK YOU ALL PRIVATELY BUT THERE SHOULD BE PUBLIC THANKS TOO)...This post is being edited...it will be back, improved and/or clearer in its contents. (Or maybe not...improved, I mean...but it will be back!)...LOVE IS MYSTERIOUSLove enters our lives without being invited...we just "fall" into it...and later we decide we want to STAY in love for that special someone [A Catholic priest and psychologist Father John Powell, S.J. once wrote a book entitled "The Secret of Staying In L...A CASE OF BAD TIMING (WITH NONE TO BLAME)...AND YET, BAD TIMING SHIFTS MOODS (ESPECIALLY TOWARD UNROMANTIC INCLINATIONS AND/OR PESSIMISM) AND IT*S A VERY UNFORTUNATE OCCURENCE Know this early though that I support polygamy, ALTHOUGH I DON*T PRACTICE IT. For me, those who prefer it need not be condemned by others, especially the monogamists (who do call polygamists immoral...now that*s just not fair!). Sometimes it*s just respe...FROM MY PROFILE THIS WEEK (See Date)Meanwhile, here was what I wrote previously, and remember, the latest news is the FIRST sentence of this profile and it begins with the word UPDATE. (clear?)- - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - -I\'m in the p... Recently Spotted MembersNo members found. Be the first. |
