| *Why do some people over-react...I mentioned in my previous post (the Thank You Page prior to this one) that a certain guy could be my next boyfriend (people were intrigued)....well...BECAUSE we almost became an item a few years back...in 2012...and my mentioning that would assist him in identifying himself in this list; since I give out no names of my friends, for the sake of privacy. (But Harry...even THAT is a code-name...did you know??). Well this guy and I actually ALMOST became sweethearts, but as he was younger (older than Harry though) I told him he had to grow up first. Just to describe him...This guy is handsome, all my suitors are. He saw me looking at my pink rosary and he wore a shirt in that exact pink shade the next day...that shade was very hard to find, but he came up with it.
Is love a matter of shirts???
No, it*s just that Harry (please be patient with this explanation...) has his own way of honouring me (tattoos) but he also copies the moves of my other suitors, like this guy, my friend, and other guys who did A FEW (random, NOT consistently frequent like Harry) great things...like Wolf bought me a bed (a $17,000.00 mattress, which I told him to give to an actress AFTER we broke up), Harry did the same thing and copied him...Wolf bought me a house I liked and which would be convenient for the way I lived my life, Harry did the same thing...Well Harry DIDN*T buy ME a house, he bought a house that he said would be convenient for me visiting my relatives and friends (in the US) and he said when we were married that would indeed be one of our places we would live in...then Harry heard of my friend that wore the pink shirt, so he does wear shirts to honour me as well. (Of course he {again} might NOT remember that he would copy everything my suitors did, but I remember everything)...(What was great about Harry was: HE LEFT NO STONE UNTURNED in honouring me and trying to make me happy. Whether it*s his own idea, or he was just copying another guy that impressed me, he wanted to do it all...which was great...)
So...What*s wrong, Noelle? WHY aren*t you back together?
Well, like I said, Harry convinced me to have old-fashioned expectations...it turns out, I shouldn*t have the old romantic notions. I*M NOT THE ONLY ONE he has love and passion for...I*m not the only one he has been after or has been chasing for several years...but several of us actually...Since he denies that he wants polygamy, WE*RE STUCK with the IDEA of the ONLY LOVE...which isn*t applicable...and he wouldn*t talk of any other arrangement, like an open marriage...OR male one-sided polygamy (which I said I could adjust to)...but yes, he still denies everything...so it*s awkward, really.
Now back to the guy who almost became my boyfriend...I have no idea if he*s The One...heck, he could be married by now...He did say he*d wait FOREVER, I wonder how true this is...but this is the KIND of guy I might try next, TOTALLY DIFFERENT...NOT NECESSARILY HIM THOUGH, like I*ve said, he could be attached by now...but someone like that...someday...IF EVER I fall out of love with Harry (sometimes I have the sinking feeling that I*ll never fall out of love with my ex...so that I*m doomed...especially I know that it*s not the western notion of romantic love he represents, but more of another kind of partnership or love)...well I get that feeling sometimes...Am I asking to be saved?....Well, almost, but not yet....I can still handle life...
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