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Mar
5
Worried
ill only make the same mistake. ill get hurt by trusting again. and I\'m battling with my inner demons.

How long have you been smiling?
It seems like it\'s been too long
Some days I don\'t feel like trying
So what the fuck are you on
Whoa, ohh
I think too much, we drink too much
Falling in love like it\'s just nothing
I want to know where do we go
When nothing\'s wrong
\'Cause all the kids are depressed
Nothing ever makes sense
I\'m not feeling alright
Staying up \'til sunrise
And hoping shit is okay
Pretending we know things
I don\'t know what happened
My natural reaction is that we\'re scared
Ohh-oh-oh
Noo-oo-oo
Ohh-oh-oh...
So I guess we\'re scared
Ohh-oh-oh, ohh-oh-oh
But I can\'t really keep lyin\' (lyin\')
\'Cause I\'ve been scared all along (all along)
I\'m getting sick of sleeping in
While all my friends are popping pills, and
I don\'t think that they\'re wrong, woah, oh
I think too much, we drink too much
Falling apart like it\'s just nothing
I want to know, where do we go
When nothing\'s wrong
\'Cause all the kids are depressed
Nothing ever makes sense
I\'m not feeling alright
Staying up \'til sunrise
And hoping shit is okay
Pretending we know things
I don\'t know what happened
My natural reaction is that we\'re scared
Ohh-oh-oh
Noo-oo-oo
Ohh-oh-oh...
So I guess we\'re scared
I won\'t deny it \'cause you saw what it was
I can\'t deny it if you won\'t give a fuck
So I\'ll throw it out
You know I am so in love
Nov
11
Happy
[QUOTE] hey ya

Mirror, mirror on the wall, yeah
Tunnel vision on the flaws
In the scale of things, it\'s unimportant
So no talking, but it\'s still an intrusive thought
Tried hard to correct it, yeah
But nothing was effective, uh
No one else seemed so obsessed with it
Things were desperate until the voice crept in
"I can help you, trust me, you\'re ready"
It seemed dangerous, but it said to have faith in it
"The secret is to just be empty"
Didn\'t know if it was wise to listen
But what could it hurt to try?
And at first, it was working
But then things were emerging
Cracked lips and tired eyes
I\'m hungry with no appetite
I\'m shivering and shaking
And I tell myself it\'s fine
But you can\'t fool your body
You can only fool your mind, yeah
Empty, I just need to be empty
Hide from anybody who\'ll prevent me
Just fill up on water and shame
No, I\'m not hungry, I just ate
I\'ve developed a taste for this
Endure the never-ending ache
Convince myself I\'m in control
And it\'s not all that voice that makes me sick
Inside, it\'s em-em-em-empty
I know, I know it\'s wrong
I\'m looking, but I can\'t see myself
Inside, it\'s em-em-em-empty
I know, I know it\'s wrong
But it\'s so hard to stop it alone
Been getting even worse, uh
All the days begin to merge, yeah
Just a blurry haze and now it\'s almost second nature to ignore the urges
Can\'t trust my own nature, uh
Every calorie a failure, uh
Gotta push the intake down every day
\'Cause the voice comes back to say
"You want to eat? Bite your tongue"
Don\'t wanna stay an embarrassment, just have to stomach it
"They don\'t know what you want"
A tug of war against common sense
Don\'t wanna believe that I\'ve overstepped
But it\'s so overwhelming
And I hope no one can tell
\'Cause the numbers keep decreasing
This ordeal is becoming routine, check
Arms, back, neck, thighs
Suck it in and pinch my sides
The scales are betraying me
The mirror is a lie, yeah
Numbers, it all comes down to numbers
I know it\'s wrong, but
Just because you know you\'re colorblind
Doesn\'t mean you can see the colors
Fine, I admit I\'m addicted
But the hunger feels good, how do I quit this?
I know I could die, I\'ve seen the statistics
But the voice is with me through thick and thin
Inside, it\'s em-em-em-empty
I know, I know it\'s wrong
I\'m looking, but I can\'t see myself
Inside, it\'s em-em-em-empty
I know, I know it\'s wrong
But it\'s so hard to stop it alone
Inside, it\'s em-em-em-empty
I know, I know it\'s wrong
I\'m looking, but I can\'t see myself
Inside, it\'s em-em-em-empty
I know, I know it\'s wrong
But it\'s so hard to stop it alone
I can reach out
To someone not like me
If you ask for help, it doesn\'t make you weak
I can reach out
To someone not like me
I can help my mind to learn to trust my body
I can reach out
To someone not like me
If you ask for help, it doesn\'t make you weak
I can reach out
Ignore what the voice tells me
I can help my mind to learn to trust my body
Inside, it\'s em-em-em-empty
I know, I know it\'s wrong
I\'m looking, but I can\'t see myself
Inside, it\'s em-em-em-empty
I know, I know it\'s wrong
But it\'s so hard to stop it alone
Inside, it\'s em-em-em-empty
I can reach out (I can reach out)
Inside, it\'s em-em-em-empty
I can reach out (I can reach out)
Nov
8
Crying
can\'t handle these pressures
All I can say is, this stress hurts
Things are supposed to get better
I just need to put myself first
I\'m always trying my hardest
Not to pick myself apart, this
Energy\'s killing my vibes now
Sometimes I just wanna drown out
All of the thoughts in my mind, too much
Going on at the same time, I
Wish it would stop and I\'ve tried, but
Life just sucks, then we all die
That\'s just reality, yeah, don\'t lie to me
Yeah, I\'m fucked up, but I don\'t wanna be
I wonder if I\'m good enough
Or maybe I\'ve just had too much
To drink, to smoke, to swallow
I\'m drowning up my sorrow
There\'s rules I\'ll never follow
Pretend there\'s no tomorrow
I wish there was no tomorrow
But I\'m empty inside, yeah, I\'m empty inside
And I don\'t wanna live, but I\'m too scared to die
Yeah, I\'m empty inside, I just don\'t feel alive
And I don\'t wanna live, but I\'m too scared to die
Wish I could erase my memories
So I could stop feeling so empty
I wish that shit wasn\'t so tempting
But it\'s hard to resist when there\'s plenty
Of things, I could do to fuck me up
I wanna let go, but I\'m feeling so stuck
So all I can do is fill up my cup
And sit here alone hoping no one disrupts
That\'s just reality, yeah, don\'t lie to me
Yeah, I\'m fucked up, but I don\'t wanna be
I wonder if I\'m good enough
Or maybe I\'ve had just too much
To drink, to smoke, to swallow
I\'m drowning up my sorrow
There\'s rules I\'ll never follow
Pretend there\'s no tomorrow
I wish there was no tomorrow
But I\'m empty inside, yeah, I\'m empty inside
And I don\'t wanna live, but I\'m too scared to die
Yeah, I\'m empty inside, I just don\'t feel alive
And I don\'t wanna live, but I\'m too scared to die
My body\'s shaking
My head is aching
It feels like my heart is breaking
My body\'s shaking
My head is aching
I can\'t fix this mess I\'m making
But I\'m empty inside, yeah, I\'m empty inside
And I don\'t wanna live, but I\'m too scared to die
Yeah, I\'m empty inside, I just don\'t feel alive
And I don\'t wanna live, but I\'m too scared to die
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