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I can't blame people for not understanding exactly what agoraphobia is--I don't get it myself and I GOT it. :)
Unfortunately, as with any handicap or flaw, it comes with a stigma attached and no one really wants to talk about it.
Let's face it, it's humiliating as hell not to be able to do something so fundamental, so very basic, to life. Therefore, we project our own fears and insecurities onto that which we ourselves fear.
Who in their right mind wants to live a life dependent on other people for the simplest things??
Not me, but I do, and I gotta tell ya....it's draining and aggravating and every single thing in between yet I grit my teeth and smile at the world when what I really want to do is SCREAM.
I'm not so different than you because of this one thing, this "condition', for lack of a better word.
I'm not weird, or lazy, or someone to be pushed aside because you don't get it.
I'm not less intelligent, or feeling, or any one of the things you might think up.
And try explaining this for the first time to a new acquaintance when asked the inevitable "What is it that you DO?"
Watch the eyes avert, or the conversation come to a grinding halt when you stumble to explain.
Just ask me about it....it's OK.
I'm way past being embarrassed or guilty for having something I nevr asked for or did anything to cause.
This may sound angry and I admit there is some lurking behind the hurt, but there is also some false bravado too because way down deep, I am just as insecure and wary and lonely and there is a deep need, as there is with everyone, to be accepted just as I am.
So please...........
Just. Ask. Me. :)
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