| In life many things happen to us that we can't explain and wish didn't happen to us but what is the point of asking "why me Lord?" He knows what He's doing even if we don't. I'm 57 yrs. old, been married 3 times, have 3 sons, and more grandchildren than I know about! I don't know where my two older boys are and I have no idea where any of my grandchildren are or how they are. My youngest son is back in prison for another 4 yrs. on a trumped up charge this time. I have had many illness' and have had dozens of surgeries! I have breast cancer, I had a bi-lateral mastectomy on May 4th of this year and just a week ago I had another large mass removed from my right wall of my chest. I'll know in two weeks if my cancer had spread. If it has, it has. There is nothing I can do about it except do whatever my doctor says is necessary to live. I've had so many body parts removed that I tell everyone that all my parts are already in heaven waiting for me to catch up with them! So, why ask why? It really doesn't matter in the long run because God is in charge today, tommorrow and always. WILL THERE REALLY BE REST FOR ALL? The holidays are supposedly past and all the hustle and bustle calmed down and now is the time to slow ourselves down and rest, are you kidding? For the past three months I've done nothing but rest due to several medical issues and doctors orders and I feel more exhausted now than ever!! Where is my energy? Where is my get up and go? I can't seem to remember the last time I felt like doing anything, even getting out of bed! "They" say that it will come back in time and to just take it easy and let my body heal. Ok, for how long? One month, one year, more? Come on people I need to feel alive if I'm to stay alive!! I will admit that I'm a very impatient person but I've really tried to do better at the whole "take your time, you'll be better in no time" thing but come on, how much longer and will it be "no time"? Until the next installment I bid all a very peaceful and blessed new year.
March 17, 2011
Happy St. Patrick's day! It's a gorgeous day! The sun is shining, it's warm outside and Cork and I rode our bikes up to Aunt Jane's and Uncle Sam's. It was easy for him but I haven't been on a bike for 43 yrs.! I just hope when I go to bed tonight I don't get muscle cramps! I can't wait to get out there and do it again, unfortunately tomorrow I'm having part of my toe amputated! Dr. Myer's is doing it in his office so I'll be awake for the whole thing!!!!! I have a feeling I'm not going to like him very much for awhile. Oh well stuff happens. |
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