| 
AS LONG AS there is room for thought that he belongs to another, I can NEVER be certain...unless he*s REALLY mine, you know what I*m saying?
He*s my dream-come-true...(so there*s actually a guy on Earth who*s THAT sexy and mysterious!)...however, at this point, there is no certainty as to who truly owns his heart (not to mention, his body) (and his soul).
I*m happy that on Valentine*s Day 2015, just a few months after joining DN, I actually have a hunk for a Valentine!
Since I*m "like" the "other woman" (compared to his girlfriend, who isn*t his wife yet, but was way ahead of me) (take note that I am NOT REALLY the other woman because when I fell for his mysterious ways, I didn*t know that he had a girlfriend! Mysterious, like I said!) I received my romantic gift early, BUT I have never received such a SEXY gift in my entire life (romantic IS SEXY didn*t you know....) And so Valentine*s Day is super-romantic to me...in fact, I have NEVER had such a romantic feeling as this in all my life! (and I*m in my 50s!)...so you could say I*m so deliriously happy this Season of Love!!
Actually, I see myself in relation to him as one like a friend supporting his every endeavor...and that includes any support he needs when he gets married to his girlfriend (Although this is certainly not a cut-and-dried or certain thing, I HAVE ALWAYS LIVED MY LIFE WITH VERY LOW EXPECTATIONS, hence I AM ALWAYS SURPRISINGLY HAPPY...another secret of youthfulness older people have passed on to me)....
Enemies of mine, who are shallow beyond belief (Don*t worry, they*re only from a certain country in Asia - from one country only - where the National Pastime is putting other people down), always like to point out that I*m perennially at the receiving end of the crumbs of a man*s love...somebody always gets preferred, they say...And so now I received my present early...it*s early...so??? Do they really think I care for the number 14 or something like that?! AND Who will win out in the end? We*ll have to see, don*t we?
It*s better to assume the worst than build castles in the air;
He is my boyfriend in the sense that my heart is taken (by him), and since it is a give-and-take relationship between us, then he really is my sweetheart.
But what if a guy has two girlfriends and he can*t make up his mind? Like I said, it*s better to guess that maybe...I*m so out of his dreams and plans. It*s better to think that way. (Well...until the day he ACTS ON IT..his love for me...IF it*s really there, that is)
I have already mentioned that he could possibly have that "HABIT of relationship" (with her), a habit so entrenched that you couldn*t get out of it even if you wanted to. Perhaps he*s already satisfied with his relationship that he doesn*t even dream of getting out of it?
I am a sweetheart of his, but on the side, not the main dish. Things could change, but I will not set my heart on it. I will just love him for the remaining time we have...(before I have to go off and forget?) He has not told me he was engaged, but even with that I*ll play it safe and assume he is, given the statements of his girlfriend to that effect.
Which brings the topic of my male best friend...the one who wants to be the best in the world, the one that wants to marry me if he could. I have deleted the main entry about him because eversince I wrote that post, he couldn*t stop grinning and teasing me (that I had the hots for him). He is good-looking and all that but lately, I have had to be on the defensive! LoL
This makes people think...I have a male best friend that wants to marry me (if he can) (well, maybe he can*t! LoL) and actually people will think we*re a couple if they see us together (because he acts so very sweet to me)...by the way, it looks as if he will fight my DN boyfriend if he ever falls deeper in love with me than he already is...
On the other hand, my DN boyfriend has his "first girlfriend" (that*s what I like to call her) who may or may not know how to love him, i.e. give him true love and happiness...whatever...well it seems that ALTHOUGH THE STORY OF THE SONG "I Honestly Love You" IS VERY DIFFERENT FROM OUR ACTUAL STORY, some lines there still ring true for us (whether "yours and mine" means we have our separate destinies of love or we have our own separate lives that cannot meld together...it still rings true right now):
If we both were born in another place and time
This moment might be ending in a kiss
But there you are with yours, and here I am with mine...
So I guess we*ll just be leaving it at this:
I love you, I honestly love you,
I honestly love you!
[UPDATE: February 15, 2015: I spoke too soon...He left love notes to be opened on February 14 (victory of love!!!)(victory over my enemies!!!), and I did receive my Valentine*s Day (as in "Day", precious enemies of mine from a certain country in Asia whose National Pastime is...) (Is it REALLY their National Pastime?? Ask them if it*s true! They*ll say YES.) gift from him. Question: Is it BETTER than the February 11 night gift?
The answer to that is another question: What are ALL the things a woman wants to hear from a man on Valentine*s Day...and I DO mean ALL? There you go.]
|
| Recently Spotted MembersNo members found. Be the first. |
