Not an Ordenary Year "2011" - By Tealfeathers1969

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Not an Ordenary Year "2011"

I feel that the Year of 2011 has changed me for life.........I just recently lost my Dad to a heart failor. He didn't tell anyone he was sick and he didn't worn us either, so yes this was very sudden. I had some idea that he was not feeling the way he should of been and I so wish I could of helped him through his pain.

He asked me one day if I would look into what would cause his lungs to hurt. I looked into it and told him he needed to be seen. He didn't have the money and I just couldn't help him.

When we found him we didn't have a chance to see him. He was in his home for too many days to see him. After that day. I kept thinking he would come knocking on my door to say " surprise! I am Okay" So I could hug him and tell him that he can never ever do that again...I still can't seem to talk or think about him without breaking down.

My sister feels so jipped for loosing him, because she was just begining to get to know him. I feel I need to make up for all she has lost. She has two darling girls that I believe Dad was trying to spend more time with latley.

I am a working mom and this pretenting that there is nothing wrong with me every day is hard. I still have my mother but her and I have never been close to her and I don't think we ever will be.

I am usualy a very happy go lucky person, but these days I am not feeling so happy or lucky or anything. So many people died in our family in 2011 I just can't believe it. 1/28/2012.

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